been a while

it’s been a while since i’ve felt human.

a long time without feeling.

hours, minutes, days, and nights

man, time sure flies

why can’t i?

i can’t remember the last time i’ve eaten.

kind of hungry but the mirror is crying.

i passed out last night.

then i woke up feeling light.

is that alright?

it must be nice, to seem so kind, ask for my time, but leave my side.

i look you in the eyes, say never mind, i’m feeling fine. 

how are you?

how long until i get over it? 

seems like i’m always working for it.

get angry, cry, repeat.

starting to feel like me.

who is she?

it must be nice, to crack a smile, and mean it this time, even from your eyes.

but i’ll look up at the sky, say never mind, i’m feeling fine. 

how are you?

been a while since i’ve liked myself.

but all i need is me.

what is lonely?

why can’t i feel…

it must be nice, to get nervous, to cry. 

feeling things, feeling fine.

but i’ll look back in time, say never mind, i'm doing fine. 

how are you?