death doesn’t scare me

i think that is the scariest statement that has ever crossed my mind.

no matter what does, or doesn’t lie beyond this life, 

I’m not afraid.

i’m not saying i want to die.

though horrid at times,

the world can be quite beautiful.

i have no intention of leaving anytime soon.

in fact, quite the opposite.

i plan on finally living.

i plan of leaving without regrets,

aside from those i already have.

free from baggage i’ve carried for so long.

from here on, i want to be happy.

to live for myself.

to seek all the beauty i can.

to learn all i need to.

to do my best.

to find myself content.

that way, 

when it’s my time, 

i’m sure.

i think,

since i’ve had a taste of peace,

i’m not afraid.

i know what living looks like.

if i can’t have peace,

death seems like the better option.

to those i’d leave behind,

cry, scream, yell 

until your breath escapes you in heaves.

i know it wouldn’t be fair.

as i write this, i’m not sure

when, or how, my time will come.

i probably didn’t do it myself.

though, i like to do things on my own.

this is one area i’m fine in.

but, no matter how i go,

don’t be afraid.

as i said, i’m not.

i may not be sure what’s beyond this life,

but i must admit it’s fascinating.

i do hope i go in peace.

there are still so many things to do.

i don’t know if i have the courage to do them all.

think of leaving as another one of my adventures.

we’ll meet again soon.