heavy

my legs feel like dead weight.

i don’t know how i’m still walking.

my muscles feel like they’ll fail at any second.

i wouldn’t mind if i fell.

it would allow me to pause and look at the sky.

my heavy body would go limp against the plush grass.

my fingers running through the blades.

sounds nice.

i’ve been so tired.

like i’ll crumble from the weight on my back.

it’s better this way, i think.

at least i no longer feel pain.

i’ve become numb.

come to think of it, i haven’t felt anything in a long time.

sleep escapes me, but i feel like i’ll drift off.

i could continue to lie here for some time, and no one would notice.

it’d feel so good.

just a minute.

i’ll lay here, close my eyes,

the earth lifting me into the clouds.

i’ll find a moment of peace.

i just need some time.

it’s all…

            just…

                      so heavy…