i opened the window

i normally spend a night like tonight outside.

i fill ears with music.

they don’t know they probably save my life.

the air smells crisp and cool.

it has a special scent of night that i find comforting.

my eyes water from pollen and things my nose itches to inhale.

the smells and cold air travel from my window and embrace me.

if i weren’t a girl.

if i didn’t have to worry about sickness.

i’d leave it open and let every aspect of the night take me away.

i lay in my bed and gaze at the visible stars.

i listen to distant voices.

maybe this is why i’ve come to appreciate my job so much.

why i love to drive home at this hour.

to wander in and out of spaces.

i open the window,

and i breathe to find the air that escapes me.